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my rant because i'm sure everyone in my life is sick of hearing me talk - i'm not getting along with my roommmate and i don't know what to do about it. i work at the animal shelter and it's very depressing seeing sick animals without homes and motherless puppies dying and dogs dying from cancer or form being hit by a car. school is stressing me out so much and all i seem to do is procrastinate lately.

life is depressing right now Frowner

Oh. Frowner I'm so sorry to hear that. Unfortunately, life can't be full of happy moments all the time. There are always sad ones. We just have to take it and try to make it though.

I love animals so much, I don't think I'd be able to work where you do. It's heartbreaking. But you have to be tough, my friend. Be strong.

Have you tried to talk to your roommate?

aww thanks for caring about what i said!!!! Smiler

things are fine with my roommate. i feel like we are growing apart, but we still get along.

and i feel better now! i'm excited to go back to work. i'm trying to get in to vet school right now and it seems unlikely, but i'm still gonna try!!!!!!

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I just. can't. take it anymore.

I've been seeing this guy I like since October and things were going great! We'd text every day just to say hey, or hello, and flirt and such. Then my phone got taken in December so we couldn't do that anymore, but we'd still keep in touch and I'd see him twice a week, at least.

We went on a date two weeks ago where he treated me to an amazing dinner that he'd been saving up for. Afterwards, we were supposed to go to his house and watch a movie, but his roommate was home sick and he said he didn't want me to catch what he had, so I dropped him off. The next day, we were supposed to meet up, but he said he had food poisoning and we should take a rain check.

It's been two weeks now. I haven't talked to him since Monday (today's Friday) and I miss him. Like crazy. I feel like he's ignoring me since he hasn't even tried to make some sort of contact--like he used to--and I don't know what happened. I've completely fallen for him at this point, so these two weeks have been murder. Worsened by the fact that I feel like he's sort of asking for space, so I haven't really done too much to talk to him either.

Maybe left him a message once or twice on his FB, but that's it.

I miss him.

I'm going insane.

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I just. can't. take it anymore.

I've been seeing this guy I like since October and things were going great! We'd text every day just to say hey, or hello, and flirt and such. Then my phone got taken in December so we couldn't do that anymore, but we'd still keep in touch and I'd see him twice a week, at least.

We went on a date two weeks ago where he treated me to an amazing dinner that he'd been saving up for. Afterwards, we were supposed to go to his house and watch a movie, but his roommate was home sick and he said he didn't want me to catch what he had, so I dropped him off. The next day, we were supposed to meet up, but he said he had food poisoning and we should take a rain check.

It's been two weeks now. I haven't talked to him since Monday (today's Friday) and I miss him. Like crazy. I feel like he's ignoring me since he hasn't even tried to make some sort of contact--like he used to--and I don't know what happened. I've completely fallen for him at this point, so these two weeks have been murder. Worsened by the fact that I feel like he's sort of asking for space, so I haven't really done too much to talk to him either.

Maybe left him a message once or twice on his FB, but that's it.

I miss him.

I'm going insane.

Hey, I know the feeling. Sometimes you have to push a guy, so he would know that you're interested and want to spend time with him. Nobody 'has to be first'. I mean starting a conversation. It's just the way you feel. Text him or call him. Find out what he really thinks and don't suffer. I hope it will turn out good for you, girl.

Ohmarcello, I'm so glad to hear everything is better. ^^ Keep on being positive and go to your goals. I'd love to become a veterinarian. It's my passion since my childhood. Hope I'll make it someday.

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It's not a "has to be first" thing at all. I've asked him three times now when he's free so we could hang out, but he avoided the question the first two times and finally said "I dunno yet, I'll let you know," the third.

It's all so frustrating and confusifying.

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Ohmarcello, I'm so glad to hear everything is better. ^^ Keep on being positive and go to your goals. I'd love to become a veterinarian. It's my passion since my childhood. Hope I'll make it someday.

really? are you trying to get in to vet school right now too??? i'm applying next year. i feel like everyone (except me) has been working toward vet school since childhood and i'm really behind because i didn't decide to do this since recently. but i have good grades so.............who knows

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really? are you trying to get in to vet school right now too??? i'm applying next year. i feel like everyone (except me) has been working toward vet school since childhood and i'm really behind because i didn't decide to do this since recently. but i have good grades so.............who knows

Yeah. I'm not sure if I will ever make it since I'm an international student and it's gonna cost me waay too much, but I still hope. Hope dies the last... I wish you good luck with that. Brumstix people are smart people. Wink (not flattering myself though, I'm not a judge Razzer)

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ahh, that's such a beautifully bittersweet story. your story reminds me another lovely story -

http://i.imgur.com/bZzOA.jpg and the resolution http://i.imgur.com/nb3n6.jpg

(from http://www.reddit.com/r/pics/c...ldnt_tell_the_story/ and http://www.reddit.com/r/pics/c...ho/c1bot66?context=3)

It's a long comic but heartwarming.

Lovely comic! I wish my relationship messes would come to a resolution like that...

Pointless rant vol. bazillion: I don't know what's going on with me nowadays. Almost everything in my life is well, if not brilliant then at least okay. There is a thing or two I really worry about, but that's it, really. And yet somehow I'm so tired, sad and cranky all the time... I have headaches and a sort of general bad feeling in my body, my voice doesn't work at all (and this is really bad for I study singing), I could easily sleep something like eleven hours per night. I feel like snapping at random people in the bus for existing, I tear up all the time. I feel like escaping all the time, like there should be another universe somewhere, a place where I could finally just feel good about myself and my life. This all makes me a little worried. I'm not used to being like this - I'm the balanced one, the reflective one, the one who finds answers and helps others with coming up with theirs. Now I have no answers. I don't know how to talk about this to anyone since there is actually nothing wrong with me. And even if there were, I wouldn't want to make anyone worry. The one person I would love to talk to seems to have totally forgotten about me, and I miss him terribly but at the same time I know that if he were to contact me now, I would be too exhausted and sad to react.

I carry around a huge pile of guilt for feeling this bad for absolutely no reason when people with real problems hold their heads up and survive brilliantly. Partially, that's why it's so hard for me to talk about this. Thank goodness for internet...

I'm sounding really, really whiny now... Rant over!

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Pointless rant vol. bazillion: I don't know what's going on with me nowadays. Almost everything in my life is well, if not brilliant then at least okay. There is a thing or two I really worry about, but that's it, really. And yet somehow I'm so tired, sad and cranky all the time... I have headaches and a sort of general bad feeling in my body, my voice doesn't work at all (and this is really bad for I study singing), I could easily sleep something like eleven hours per night. I feel like snapping at random people in the bus for existing, I tear up all the time. I feel like escaping all the time, like there should be another universe somewhere, a place where I could finally just feel good about myself and my life. This all makes me a little worried. I'm not used to being like this - I'm the balanced one, the reflective one, the one who finds answers and helps others with coming up with theirs. Now I have no answers. I don't know how to talk about this to anyone since there is actually nothing wrong with me. And even if there were, I wouldn't want to make anyone worry. The one person I would love to talk to seems to have totally forgotten about me, and I miss him terribly but at the same time I know that if he were to contact me now, I would be too exhausted and sad to react.

I carry around a huge pile of guilt for feeling this bad for absolutely no reason when people with real problems hold their heads up and survive brilliantly. Partially, that's why it's so hard for me to talk about this. Thank goodness for internet...

I'm sounding really, really whiny now... Rant over!

wow, you have perfectly described the days I've been having. From now on, you shall be called the Voice of my Conscious.

I'm sort of drifting through life, pretending I'll actually capitalize on the next day or the next weekend and end up not accomplishing things until the day before. My moods are fickle. I look for an escape from reality like reading or sleeping. I let small things upset my plans (The internet is most appealing when there's work to do). Each week is a replay.

As much as I hate rage comics, this summarizes it pretty well:

http://i.imgur.com/vV9c4.png - Every Semester - Reddit

"The likelihood of putting homework off increases in relation to the progression of the semester. Because of one's own habitual procrastination, the acts of studying for their exams frequently degrade into short one-day cram sessions. While these short and dense periods of study are effective for completing tests on the days following, they will not often lead to long-term absorption of knowledge. To the opposite effect, students disciplined enough to study frequently throughout their class terms often brag about how little "extra" study time was necessary to prepare for their exams. Though these students sometimes claim to be more intelligent than others, usually they simply have more wisdom and diligence when it comes to routine studying."

The story of my life:

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I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.

~ Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

I know what you mean by your last point. There's a kid in a few of my classes whose double-majoring and doing hockey practice everyday and is an overachiever in every class. This guy's another inspiring example:

http://www.miamistudent.net/fe...-to-school-1.1922203 (from, yes, reddit)

His college dreams were delayed when his girlfriend got pregnant when he was a junior. He's 32 years old and now he's getting his bachelor's degree in two years. He took 26 credits last summer, 23 in the fall, and he's taking 28 right now.

more examples (worth a look):

http://www.reddit.com/r/pics/c...xnmc/college/c1bt28j

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I would gladly be The Voice of your Conscious! Smiler I'm very sorry that you are going through the same nasty feelings I am but, to look at it selfishly, it feels good to know that I'm not completely alone with this. I guess I've always had some escapist tendencies but during the past couple of years I've been so busy and happy with my own life that the need to get away has become milder and milder. Right now I could just sit on my bed and read books, watch films and listen to music. Anything to take me away from this reality. Usually I'm the biggest procrastinator you can find, but currently I'm doing my schoolwork happily to keep my mind busy. It's better to write essays or practise than to spin same bad thoughts around in your head over and over again.

I guess the main problem is that I feel very lonely even though I am not. I have lived in this town for something like five months and I've gotten to know people from school. They like me okay. I have my old friends with whom I stay in touch as much as I can. That should be enough! So, I don't have a boyfriend? That's no reason to feel this isolated! I just wish my emotions would do as my sense tells them to do... I'm a needy idiot.

That Sylvia Plath quote, my gosh! Why have I never really read her works before? That's my thoughts exactly, just phrased better than I ever could. Right now I'm biting my way through one fig but at the same time looking at the others, longing for them. Nothing stresses me like having to decide, but not having any choice at all is at least as horrible as that.

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